Tagged with existentialism

SKYLIGHT

SKYLIGHT

I promise this isn’t a weather report but it DID snow overnight. And that’s funny ’cause if it snowed here, there must be an awful lot of snow in environs further north. And this with Spring only three days away! And not a moment too soon. But it didn’t snow much and it won’t be here … Continue reading

PLEASING

PLEASING

you can please some of the people all of the time all of the people some of the time but not all of the people all of the time yet still pay heed why not concede and go out and about on your merry way do what you do and say all that you say … Continue reading

SILOS

SILOS

We live in a world of our own in a box sealed up tightly in silence whilst away all the time yet we talk our big game such a whirl we are having like it needs to be told parsing out wishful thinking It is so often said that “you can’t take it with you” … Continue reading

ROLL WITH THE PUNCHES

ROLL WITH THE PUNCHES

was that chicago? does anybody really know what time it is? do you really care? it’s seven-thirty no six-thirty hard to tell cause we changed the clocks what does that mean though and who do we think we are? where did that hour go? we lost it somewhere we mess around with and modify and … Continue reading

COME WHAT MAY

COME WHAT MAY

done all i can do did what had to be done tried as hard as i might was a fight never slight played as much as i can with the hand i was dealt worked with all that i had did my best never less another chapter is over another story’s been told now it’s … Continue reading

HILL OF BEANS

HILL OF BEANS

Things have been better. But much worse too. I’m fully engaged, although at the moment a big part of me would rather not be. I’ve learned after all these years I won’t disengage even though I may want to. It’s just not my nature. Sure in the past I’ve disengaged and isolated and fretted and … Continue reading

TAME

TAME

I thrill in your absence Sit still here in silence Filled up with resplendence In your effervescence Not fleeting You’re sweet I can’t help what you do Not phony Or fake I can see that you’re true I cave in your presence Stand brave in your wake I wonder and hope That you know I’ve … Continue reading

THE RACE

THE RACE

i’ve often heard it’s easier said than done they’ve often said you’re better off led than dead so often the case it’s better not running the race more often it goes the outcome nobody knows.

WONDER THE REASONS

WONDER THE REASONS

it’s preposterous my face and body and mind illusion mostly not so pretty now things don’t make sense generally there’s no explaining what are the reasons? we’re born and we live and we laugh and we love and try to be happy all the while knowing life keeps moving along and we don’t know the … Continue reading

PALETTE

PALETTE

you have your own canvas it’s blank paint what you like color your world no one’s to say does it matter? you have your own toolbox so use it build what you want start from the ground up fix what you fancy you run the crew no right way or wrong there’s only your palette … Continue reading

CLOCKS

CLOCKS

the days of the week i talk about them too much why do i keep track? i wonder does god? do they keep track in heaven? most likely they don’t whoever “they” are the days of the week a way to tally and mark and capture the time yesterday, today all our days and tomorrow … Continue reading

ROBINS

ROBINS

Ice storm and robins That’s unexpected They’re making a ruckus Well for robins that is As frozen rain hastily drops I forgot to listen to the weather They don’t make a sound Well not with their throats But they lift and they swoop Their wings flutter about Much more than in May How they will … Continue reading

NOTHINGNESS

NOTHINGNESS

nothingness is everything there isn’t anything more than not a bit nor in the least that’s it all she wrote grasping and clawing day in and out pining and searching time and again the same dead end streets and endless brick walls start over at the beginning then try again try to be satisfied by … Continue reading

NOW ONLY COMES ONCE

NOW ONLY COMES ONCE

sixty-six more days that’s how many it is now days till spring that is i’m counting them down i usually do every year around this time so i’m starting now but now only comes once right? i mean this moment when there’s sixty-six more days till it’s finally here? spring twenty-thirteen sixty-five more days that’s … Continue reading

VALUE

VALUE

get back on the horse we’re gonna take a ride soon into the sunshine of a new day here the keys to your car get them and get your coat too it’s time for a trip who knows what shall be? don’t forget money no forget the money see? the times have a changed it’s … Continue reading

NEW YEAR’S REVOLUTION

NEW YEAR’S REVOLUTION

Contemplation Meditation Consideration Masturbation Fret over Brood over Blue in the face Size up And stare down Take in And breathe out Slowly But surely Illuminate Speculate And study Ruminate And percolate Covet Aspire Propose And yearn Wanting And needing To zero in on Zoom out from A cop out? Float it out A trial … Continue reading

PROPHETS AND SAGES

PROPHETS AND SAGES

You speak in euphemisms and delicacies and fabrications.  With such bombastries and pomposities and grandiloquences. What’s with this false front and the put-on high-handedness? And the whispering down the alley and talking in innuendos and riddles and smoke and mirrors and this gosh-darned twisting up in tangles? I wouldn’t know. Smug yes I am I’ve no … Continue reading

RIVER BENDS

RIVER BENDS

First published in Gadfly Magazine in March 2012, and in New Future in October 2012. Come see me where the river bends Miles before giving way to the sea From high in the mountains Crystal clear and inviting Making way On its own I’m not far away, so why don’t you come? To where the … Continue reading

JUXTAPOSED

JUXTAPOSED

I do suppose We’re in repose But predisposed To juxtapose The light and dark The happy sad Together here We’re good and bad And goodness knows I can’t oppose Your soul exposed No longer closed But juxtaposed With pain and hate Where fear does reign Served on a plate Each day imposed So not composed … Continue reading

RANDOM

RANDOM

as the sun comes up it doesn’t cease to shine on all the confusion as the rain falls down it doesn’t distinguish good or bad or ugly it just does as night follows day it does for everyone and always will it seems for the poor the rich the right the wrong the pure and … Continue reading

OH WINTER SOLSTICE

OH WINTER SOLSTICE

oh winter solstice i’m happy you’re coming back in just a few days i love when you come and i’m sitting here waiting not that it matters i don’t have a choice whether i like it or not you come like clockwork when it gets too dark every day even more so you come to … Continue reading

SOMEWHERE TO GO

SOMEWHERE TO GO

Tell me it’ll be okay Tell me it’s a bad dream And I’m gonna wake up Tell me the day will be filled with peace And harmony and sunshine Can you tell me that? I know that you can’t It’s always the same Then it’s more of the same We go on as we do … Continue reading

URUGUAY

URUGUAY

I could live on fruit year round. I like it a lot and have ceased analyzing why we humans have certain quirky but unique character traits that make each one of us the bad asses that we are. For me, being passionate about eating inordinate amounts of fruit every day all year round is one … Continue reading

I’LL SLEEP WHEN I’M DEAD

I’LL SLEEP WHEN I’M DEAD

mystery or certainty are not what they’re cracked up to be the first is fun but then you wonder gotta know what makes the thunder the second sure it’s good to have security no worries too but so blasé to know the way when yesterday was like today what good is it to be so … Continue reading

NEW NARRATIVE

NEW NARRATIVE

I’m buying a guitar today. A used one, nothing fancy. Acoustic. From a woman on Craigslist, you know how that works. I’ve been wanting to buy one for a while now, even though I don’t know how to play- my plan is to teach myself. Last winter I “collaborated” with a musician friend of mine, … Continue reading

ASTRALLY

ASTRALLY

It’s 5am. Tomorrow at this time it’ll be 4am. That’ll be the new “real time”, you know the whole spring ahead, fall behind thing? No need to poke holes or analyze that whole concept really, I mean it is what it is. Man toying with nature. I do welcome it getting light out earlier though, … Continue reading

FALL TO THE GROUND

FALL TO THE GROUND

To me it’s about death. It’s over. The balmy and comfy weather. The light. My year. The fun. I’m tricked by the colors oh so vibrant and where I live there seems every color imaginable. I’m scared because this signifies the coming of the cold and dark time. There’s nothing new under the sun and … Continue reading

UPPING THE ANTE

UPPING THE ANTE

We have a tendency to be our own worst enemy. We so easily beat ourselves up over lots. Why is it that we’re so good at being our own harshest critic? To me it remains a mystery and must be some sort of coping mechanism or something. We have so many. Human nature continuously confounds … Continue reading

PEAK

PEAK

Have you finally reached the tipping point? Have things come to a head? I can only commend you I would never have lasted so long Under the circumstances I mean Has it all run its course? How long can it go on? With all your fighting and fussing And pushing this hard? There has to … Continue reading

THE LEAST

THE LEAST

the greatest of these is charity and faith and hope and kindness not the biggest or loudest or richest or brashest or that which looks most obvious its helter-skelter topsy- turvy inside-out it’s hari-kari rub your eyes and get in line and wait your turn you’ll get your chance cause the greatest of these is the least … Continue reading

JOHN DOE

JOHN DOE

there’s no such thing as the common man there’s no such thing as the average joe or boilerplate there’s no such thing as ordinary no such thing conventional me thinks a myth there’s no such thing as Jones or Smith or John Q Public everyman there’s really no such thing they said that you are … Continue reading

ITS OWN SAKE

ITS OWN SAKE

isn’t it absurd? it’s god’s cruel joke i’m saying that it’s gotta be preposterous too i mean in how we’re living see the evidence? hopefully you don’t what you don’t know won’t hurt you ignorance is bliss happier clueless is so popular right now folly to be wise is what i’m learning insert head in … Continue reading

EYES OF YESTERDAY

EYES OF YESTERDAY

memories consume me but not memories of people or events or successes and accomplishments i’m here with my head back looking up at the stars and thinking back over the years to times I did the same thing things are different now i remember being in places places i loved they’re all gone now i’m … Continue reading

PAPER-THIN

PAPER-THIN

As long as I live and until the day that I die, there’ll always be little things that confound me. I mean downright astonish me! Well, astonish is too strong of a word, it’s just a case of wondering the whys of it. Like why do I wear a t-shirt for two hours and then … Continue reading

GET HERE

GET HERE

How’d we get here? I mean after so long Can you say? Well I’d like to know Because the road it’s been long It’s been hard It’s been tough It’s been rough there’s no doubt And now I find myself sitting Alone here Without you I just sit in this chair And it hurts And … Continue reading

NOT MUCH ANYMORE

NOT MUCH ANYMORE

It’s beautiful outside But I can’t see it The world has opportunity But I don’t know it All I know are these four walls And the inside of my head Not much beyond here Not much Anymore I used to see beauty And eat up opportunity But that was before And another person A person … Continue reading

ISLAND

ISLAND

yeh so that’s how it goes goodness knows and it shows it’s the way that it is and it’s mine it ain’t his accountable am I to myself no one else no man is an island but for me and I’m free.

WHY WE’RE HERE

WHY WE’RE HERE

feet hurt from walking heart hurts from feeling while my brain hurts from thinking and my face hurts too that’s from the smile that’s frozen there all the time now that hides the hurt and the pain from a life that goes nowhere and that stays off course and aimless with each day being the … Continue reading

HUMILITY

HUMILITY

I think we fall short on humility. Now don’t get me wrong I don’t say that with any degree of pride. Actually I say it with total unabashed down-on-my-knees-with-head-hanging-low humility. See how that goes? Nowadays so many seem so puffed up and assertive with needing to get stage time as they go about their day. … Continue reading

BIG VALLEY

BIG VALLEY

i’m on the cusp of a brand new beginning the unexpected is waiting for me i’m on the peak of the highest mountain the big valley is all i can see it’s the land where adventure does happen i’ll find out when i get where i’ll be the big valley is where i’ll be walking … Continue reading

LOFTY IDEALS

LOFTY IDEALS

Living with lofty ideals Has its pitfalls Only because it takes a lot Of stamina And perseverance And sweating blood And crawling over broken glass Some of the time. Cause those lofty ideals Aren’t practiced everywhere Or by everyone Many don’t even care Or hold it in esteem Like they used to In the olden … Continue reading

HARD CROSS

HARD CROSS

I can’t tell you all that makes me tick, when i don’t even know myself. I can’t tell you what tomorrow brings, best to keep all that up on the shelf. I can’t tell you how i got to here, can you tell me how you got there? I can’t tell you much when you’re … Continue reading

LATE FOR THE PARTY

LATE FOR THE PARTY

you were late for the party caught none of the show you missed all of the high points and some of the low you were late for the program as a matter a fact can’t kiss and make up when there’s no second act when you miss out on some things then more you may … Continue reading

TODAY IS ABOUT TODAY

TODAY IS ABOUT TODAY

It’s early Thursday morning, which is cool. What’s funny is I’ve been up for about an hour, and in that hour, floating around in the back of my mind was the thought it was Wednesday. I got excited when I realized it was Thursday. But why? Why do I constantly feel the need to hurry … Continue reading

FLY

FLY

bleed brother bleed cry sister cry love father love sigh mother sigh years and then more we go grey and get old and time inevitably goes by heed brother heed try father try family and friends and lovers and more the depth that you crave  in your life cede brother cede fly people fly.

NEXT TO GOD

NEXT TO GOD

what would jesus do? love thy neighbor as thyself then be crucified cause today the world is filled with hate and violence when jesus preached just love not intolerance not many have the patience for what jesus said about the meek and pure inheriting the earth and the peacemakers and the merciful and the poor … Continue reading

GO

GO

how will you go? will it be out in a blaze of glory quickly and without warning quietly and casually and leaving behind only questions and wonder? or will you go slowly? enduring a long period of pain with your body and mind shutting down and you stomping your feet and refusing to let go, … Continue reading

CARICATURE

CARICATURE

I know you are friendly All the world lights up when you’re near I know you’ve a conscience You’ve done so much for the children I know you love animals You’ve rescued so many I know you like hiking You have a bumper sticker that says so I know you eat healthy And enjoyed your … Continue reading

TELL ME WHY

TELL ME WHY

Dear God Why are we the way we are? One day filled with hope for the future The next day ready to throw in the towel Tell me God, why? I wanna know. I’ve asked you so many times And on some days I believe you’ve answered me On others it’s a pin drop situation … Continue reading

BRASS TACKS

BRASS TACKS

Contemplating my navel Not thinking of much really Daydreaming my old daydreams While gazing at the sky Doesn’t it seem much bluer? Or maybe I haven’t looked up enough lately Who knows? Getting down to brass tacks here.