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CLOSEOUT

CLOSEOUT

Everything really is getting smaller. Last week I bought a half gallon of orange juice, you know, with pulp? Tropicana or whatever. Well it’s not the same half gallon it used to be. It’s smaller. And like four bucks! The same thing with my normal Folgers Coffee that I’ve been buying for years, you know, … Continue reading

DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOUR CHILDREN ARE?

DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOUR CHILDREN ARE?

So it seems like things are back to normal lately. Well an odd sort of normal-because of the stink bugs I mean. They’re back. Where they’ve been I have no idea, but now they’re here keeping me company by hanging on the outside of the screens during the heat of the day and inside the … Continue reading

HOBGOBLIN

HOBGOBLIN

Ralph Waldo Emerson said that “consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds”. Well my mind must be quite large because my life is anything but consistent. Especially lately. I’ve been missing-in-action the last week. And a long week it’s been. That’s why I’ve been removed from my regular routine which includes my many hours of … Continue reading

DISNEY

DISNEY

For the sake of gentrification we’ll use public money to raze that block of eyesore businesses and put up a brand spanking new Marriott Hotel! We’re flush with cash now that we’re off the hook on those pesky pensions. The Marriott will bring in more tourists and clean things up and get rid of most … Continue reading

COME TO JESUS

COME TO JESUS

For some reason, last night the soundtrack to my nonsensical and disjointed dreams was the Ben Folds Five. You know what I mean by soundtrack: in the background and very low-key however endlessly looping? I have no problem at all with the Ben Folds- there’s an infinite amount of worse music. But I really haven’t … Continue reading

HUMILITY

HUMILITY

I think we fall short on humility. Now don’t get me wrong I don’t say that with any degree of pride. Actually I say it with total unabashed down-on-my-knees-with-head-hanging-low humility. See how that goes? Nowadays so many seem so puffed up and assertive with needing to get stage time as they go about their day. … Continue reading

THINK SO MUCH

THINK SO MUCH

Maybe I can just take things at face value? It’s really quite simple. At least it is to me. There’s not much to it and nothing to figure out. As they say way too much nowadays: “it is what it is”. Maybe I can just get out of my own way? Overanalysis not necessary. Modification … Continue reading

CHIN-WAGGIN’

CHIN-WAGGIN’

I’m not a big fan of Hitler, but comparing Barack Obama to Hitler really is a bit of a stretch. I just heard an elected official on the news do it, and if you think about it, it doesn’t do Hitler justice. In a manner of speaking. And lots of folks believe it too. That’s … Continue reading

DIBS!

DIBS!

Where I live I rent an apartment in an apartment buildling and have a neighbor below me. Yeh I’m on the second floor which is cool, especially as you drive around the building and up a hill to park for my place, and go in the front door at street level. Know what I mean? … Continue reading

WHAT IS THIS?

WHAT IS THIS?

It was pretty sad everything that happened with that Joker-guy. In Colorado I mean. It’s so funny how these things keep happening and there’s no groundswell of support whatsoever to do something about the easy availability of guns and ammunition in this country. There’s not. Like that politician who was flummoxed that someone in the … Continue reading

MIDDLE RIVER

MIDDLE RIVER

Sometimes, when I cross Middle River, my mind drifts backward through my past. I had a friend for a brief period of time, a good friend I’d say. We don’t know each other anymore, but that’s okay. I have good memories. We fit like a hand fits a glove, which is curious as we were … Continue reading

LATTE

LATTE

I’m sitting here drinking a latte. What’s funny about that is I’m not really a latte person. Very occasionally. I got it just now here at Starbucks on top of the mountain because we lost power overnight in what seemed to be really a wind and thunder and lightning event. Strange in that there wasn’t … Continue reading

STICK IT IN

STICK IT IN

I think I’m gonna start smoking inside again. I mean inside the house—not like a chimney mind you, twenty-four hours a day—and certainly not in bed or anything like that. And not with ashtrays full of stinky cigarette butts strewn about the house either. Currently I’m in the habit of going outside every so often … Continue reading

BAD SEX

BAD SEX

Eating sushi is better than sex. Well, bad sex anyway. It’s the whole interactivity thing of it. Choosing and deciding on the right combination is an act in and of itself. The mixing of the ginger and soy sauce and wasabi brings anticipation to no end. And getting the right piece on your chopsticks and … Continue reading

PICTURES I KEEP IN MY MIND

PICTURES I KEEP IN MY MIND

I forged a new trail today. Well I didn’t actually forge it myself, I’m sure it’s been there a very long time. This trail is part of an impressive myriad of trails that are a hop, skip and a jump from my front door. They weave their way through the woods and down the mountain … Continue reading

EMPTY SPOT

EMPTY SPOT

I’ve weaned myself off of television again, and overall am quite glad. I’m a news junkie, and there’s definitely such a thing as watching too much news. Having cable news on for six hours straight during the day really is a bit much. I’m lucky I don’t even have a TV right now, which certainly … Continue reading

THE SCHEME OF THINGS

THE SCHEME OF THINGS

I had a really boring day yesterday. This is strange because generally I don’t get bored much and do know how to keep occupied. Not as in “keeping busy” as they say, or “finding something to do” either. Generally I enjoy doing what it is that I do with my time and feeling pretty satisfied. … Continue reading

MEADOWS

MEADOWS

Where I live there are meadows out my back door, a short walk through the woods. They are on an eighty-acre farm that’s been sold twice in the last two years. There are two meadows, separated by a creek which runs slowly downhill to a pair of ponds, which are in front of the main farm house. … Continue reading

MY MOM

MY MOM

There are countless reasons why I love and honor my Mom. What stands out most is how she always fostered a healthy spirit of self-reliance, independence and skepticism in me. This has served me well, and for this I’m eternally grateful. For as long as I can remember, my Mom encouraged me to be genuine. … Continue reading

DEAR FOOD BANK

DEAR FOOD BANK

I enjoyed you this morning. I usually do, although it’s definitely a full morning to say the least. I enjoyed you years ago when I first came to see you. Although at that time I just showed up to help. The heavy lifting, the set up, and the assisting of the folks loading their grocery … Continue reading

HANG MY CLOTHES

HANG MY CLOTHES

I’m moving next month which is totally cool. I’ve been somewhat homeless for awhile and although I’ve had a place to lay my head, I’ve had no closets to hang my clothes. Wears on the nerves. So having my own place again is something I’m really looking forward to. Marking my own space (yes literally) … Continue reading

MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS

MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS

It’s the middle of the night again. Well, 4:20 in the morning. As you probably know, 4:20 is supposedly the designated worldwide moment when cannabis smokers can light up, although I’m pretty sure PM is what’s intended. A stoner-bonding thing or something. Don’t get me wrong I’m not sitting here smoking weed (although maybe I … Continue reading

ONLY EMPLOYEE AT A WEDDING

ONLY EMPLOYEE AT A WEDDING

I was the only employee at a wedding last night. Employee, well.  It was a catered affair, self-service, and I was to show up specifically to keep the bar and hors d’oeuvre table stocked and looking good, and set up the buffet table for dinner.  Also, pay some attention to the guests. Once the bride and … Continue reading

DON’T THINK I’VE A POINT

DON’T THINK I’VE A POINT

It’s been a long, dark and cold winter and I’m more than delighted it’s spring. Now mind you, we’ve really only had a couple of days of any REAL winter this year, although it was hard to tell. That may have been a couple of days in January —oh yeh— and a few hours of snow … Continue reading

MISFITS

MISFITS

I’ll sit at the misfit table. While I appreciate your invitation to sit on the dais with the “prominent” ones, I’d prefer sitting wherever the outcasts are. Sorry, it’s just my way. You say there are no outcasts here? That we’re all inclusive and tolerant and welcoming and accessible? While I don’t question your integrity … Continue reading

MORNINGS

MORNINGS

I slept backwards last night. Well by backwards I mean I put the pillows at the foot of the bed and spun myself around. It was quite spontaneous, I just did it. I have two small bedrooms in my cottage and each has two windows. I recently changed rooms as I’d been feeling that I … Continue reading

WALDEN

WALDEN

Sometimes I get angry and feel contempt for Henry David Thoreau. It’s a long story really, and most definitely a certifiable neurosis of sorts for me personally. But it’s true. I’ve spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about and mulling over it, particularly over the last couple of years. As my life has changed … Continue reading

VULTURES

VULTURES

I was driving down the country road and saw them up ahead. They were vultures.  A pack of them. Being I had my beater car flying sixty miles an hour, I figured I oughta slow down if I knew what’s good for me. They were standing in the middle of the road going at some vermin, … Continue reading

RECOVERY

RECOVERY

I have to go to the mental institute today. Well nowadays they call it the State Hospital. I heard way back when they called it the “Lunatic Asylum”, but that was back before there was any type of sensitivity in the least about such “lunatics”. Oh and no, I’m not going because of my own … Continue reading

GOTTA WONDER

GOTTA WONDER

            You gotta wonder about someone who’s so talented but doesn’t recognize it, and does nothing but put up roadblocks and invalidates what oughtta be a pleasure and opportunity to celebrate. You gotta wonder about someone who has nothing but disdain and contempt for everyone and everything around them, and … Continue reading

EULOGIZE ME

EULOGIZE ME

They’ll say nice things about me after I’m gone. At my funeral. If I have one that is. Securing a pauper’s grave is not an easy thing to come by, I know. But however it turns out, I’m sure they’ll wax eloquent about my good qualities, and most certainly mention my “otherworldness”. Well I hope … Continue reading

STARING INTO THE SUN

STARING INTO THE SUN

It’s the quietness of my mind that I crave. Like when I was smaller, much younger.  I would close my eyes while staring into the sun. I’d get amusement and something akin to inspiration, just by closing my eyes and looking as far ahead as I could; by squeezing them shut. All yellow and white and red … Continue reading

PACKAGING

PACKAGING

I walked out of the grocery store, back to the picnic table, where we were just hanging out enjoying the weather. Remember? Having one of those pretty, lay-about days in the sunshine. I took out my snackies, which consisted of two “lunchables”, I guess they call them, and an apple, with a yogurt, and one … Continue reading

WHAT IS ART?

WHAT IS ART?

There’s really much to be said about the pedigree and time invested by those who are experts in their field- the “textbook theorists” as a friend of mine calls them. These folks certainly deserve acclaim and kudos for their accomplishments and dedication and book-learning. Such credibility doesn’t come without a real investment of blood, sweat … Continue reading

HELLO!

HELLO!

  When I moved to Virginia I had the uncomfortable experience of getting used to strangers looking me.  I mean, looking at me straight in the face and even saying hello to me on the street!  All the doggone time.  It felt like people were “eyeballing” me.  And wanting to start up conversations everywhere over … Continue reading

PIPE DREAM

PIPE DREAM

Why would you tell me it’s just a pipe dream? Look me in the eye and tell me that? I have enough trouble believing in myself. I’ve been trained since my youth not to dare to dream. I’ve been told since my youth to find some fault or flaw in my thinking- to not go … Continue reading

I MISS MY JESUS

I MISS MY JESUS

I do. It’s been awhile since we had a relationship but we used to. A long time ago. I certainly was much more impressionable then. I mean after all I was just a small child. But Jesus and I had it going on really. I believed in him and felt him in my heart all … Continue reading