Tagged with depression

FAT ELVIS

FAT ELVIS

tore up beat down lead balloon gravity all this weight it’s crushing me you cover me push me down sinkhole down low fat elvis long the night too short the day elvis decay face down i stay. Advertisements

THE NIGHT GOT OLD

THE NIGHT GOT OLD

They’d been together for a while and though Betsy felt they got along well enough, she couldn’t put her finger on why she still felt so empty. Was it the carefree way they drove down the road and he sang those lame top forty songs at the top of his lungs? Or maybe how when … Continue reading

BARREN LANDSCAPE

BARREN LANDSCAPE

i look at the blank screen my mind is blank too nothing to say that hasn’t been said the same old diatribes and pronouncements and hyperbole and a half again and more so i look at the stark wall my heart is stark too an utter contradiction of emotion and road wear of desolation and … Continue reading

SHE DID

SHE DID

My sweet old honey She stole my money It isn’t funny Yes she did My sweet old baby She left me maybe And drove me crazy Yes she did It’s been so long ago And it’s done even so Well I just didn’t know That she would Would I do it again? If I did … Continue reading

THAT AND SUSHI

THAT AND SUSHI

I just got back from a very nice autumnal walk through the woods down to the river, with lots of leaves crunching under foot and a chill in the air. It’s really more than a “walk” per se-  it’s actually a hike as this is foothill country. Not many people in my circle are physically … Continue reading

SCRAPPY

SCRAPPY

I could moan and could groan And could fuss and could fight But I won’t I could rant and complain About suffering and pain But I can’t There’s no outlet I’ve learned in this life But to grin and to bear all the strife I could grumble and whimper And fret and accuse In a … Continue reading

NOT MUCH ANYMORE

NOT MUCH ANYMORE

It’s beautiful outside But I can’t see it The world has opportunity But I don’t know it All I know are these four walls And the inside of my head Not much beyond here Not much Anymore I used to see beauty And eat up opportunity But that was before And another person A person … Continue reading

WHY WE’RE HERE

WHY WE’RE HERE

feet hurt from walking heart hurts from feeling while my brain hurts from thinking and my face hurts too that’s from the smile that’s frozen there all the time now that hides the hurt and the pain from a life that goes nowhere and that stays off course and aimless with each day being the … Continue reading

RAINSTORMS

RAINSTORMS

Nature soothes my loneliness I know I’m not alone Mornings fill my emptiness Like nothing that I known Sunlight warms the bitter cold That’s frozen up my heart Rainstorms wash away the dirt That’s been here from the start.

AND HOW

AND HOW

i don’t have the strength i don’t have the will i don’t have the fight to get up this hill i’m tired i’m beaten disillusioned and spent i’m sitting here waiting and want to relent   for so long for so much i’ve fought the good fight with muster and courage and thinking it might … Continue reading

FRENCH BREAD… with art by Marie Sjostrom

FRENCH BREAD… with art by Marie Sjostrom

He finally left and she laid still in the bed. The goings-on of last night left her with a restless and unfitful sleep. Not restorative. When he sat in the kitchen with his morning coffee, she kept her eyes closed, pretending she wasn’t awake,   She didn’t want to have to look at him, look him … Continue reading

DEPRESSION

DEPRESSION

depression is not something to just get over it gets a grip and it takes control and hurts like hell in every way mind body and soul it’s clinical and so very real and often feels like it will stay but it goes away and then makes you wonder why it came anyway.

SKIN

SKIN

I live inside you I’ve not a choice And you show me that you’re in charge You’re either smooth and even and quiet Or raging and relentless and zealous Then I can’t help but touch you To rub and to gnaw and to score you You make sure I know that you’re here Why do … Continue reading

THIS MOSAIC

THIS MOSAIC

Fragile and delicate With a rough exterior That betrays the gloominess And apathy that persists Inside Scared and vulnerable With a clouded and jaded view Of how things are And how they could be For you Your pain is too much I know that it’s real The tears and the anguish Your nightmares reveal This … Continue reading

‘TIL WHEN?

‘TIL WHEN?

How long will things get worse before they get better? Is God saying what doesn’t kill me makes me strong? How many obstacles must I overcome before I’m settled? When in God’s name will things turn around? In how long? For better or worse And for rich or for poor Confounded and weakened And always … Continue reading

SLEEP THROUGH TOMORROW

SLEEP THROUGH TOMORROW

Why can’t I just sleep through tomorrow? Bring me one day closer to death. Buy some time in this ongoing struggle. Help preserve my so precious breath.   My will is so weak and so fleeting. My fire just won’t burn as bright. The embers have slowly diminished. What happened to all of that light? … Continue reading