Tagged with death

DIFFERENT FOR EVERYONE

DIFFERENT FOR EVERYONE

Marty hadn’t seen his father since the big blow up. That was almost three years ago. Blow up doesn’t even do justice to how embarrassing and pathetic a scene it really was. But wasn’t that how it always went? With the fighting and yelling and hurt feelings? The modus operandi really. And for as long as … Continue reading

GRASP

GRASP

i need more time more time to reconcile my life do all the things i want to do all the things i said i would all the things i should i need more space more space to be as big as i feel to grow into what i see myself as to stretch as far … Continue reading

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD

Happy birthday It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you Over twenty years at least I remember the last time like it was yesterday But that’s not what I remember most I remember the day I forgave you For all the years of conflict and strife And for being a target Of your ignorance … Continue reading

THAT DAY IN THE PARK

THAT DAY IN THE PARK

I wasn’t close with my dad. As a matter of fact, we were far apart for as long as I can remember.  My mom told me that when I was still a baby I’d cry and scream when he held me.  My dad would get frustrated and hand me back over to my mom. I’d … Continue reading

SUNRISE

SUNRISE

twilight before dawn dark night until light there’s pain before happy there’s death until risen there’s suffering to heal but the sunrise today no matter what they say there’s a will and a way.

NICENESS AND SMILES ALL AROUND

NICENESS AND SMILES ALL AROUND

The other day I was on my way to a friend’s. I was driving down the road minding my own business and somebody honked at me. I wasn’t doing anything wrong, unless you call enjoying the majestic mountain views a crime, and to be honest there were a lot of cars on this four-lane divided highway. … Continue reading

WAILING

WAILING

I had a dream about you last night. That’s not unusual. I’ve told you about those times when I’ve dreamt of you in the past- the odd plot lines or humorous circumstances where your face has shown up or your presence was made known.  Funny how in life it seems about anyone or anything can … Continue reading

TODAY IS ABOUT TODAY

TODAY IS ABOUT TODAY

It’s early Thursday morning, which is cool. What’s funny is I’ve been up for about an hour, and in that hour, floating around in the back of my mind was the thought it was Wednesday. I got excited when I realized it was Thursday. But why? Why do I constantly feel the need to hurry … Continue reading

GO

GO

how will you go? will it be out in a blaze of glory quickly and without warning quietly and casually and leaving behind only questions and wonder? or will you go slowly? enduring a long period of pain with your body and mind shutting down and you stomping your feet and refusing to let go, … Continue reading

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when i die let it be said that “he knew himself as well as one could.”

SLEEP THROUGH TOMORROW

SLEEP THROUGH TOMORROW

Why can’t I just sleep through tomorrow? Bring me one day closer to death. Buy some time in this ongoing struggle. Help preserve my so precious breath.   My will is so weak and so fleeting. My fire just won’t burn as bright. The embers have slowly diminished. What happened to all of that light? … Continue reading

EULOGIZE ME

EULOGIZE ME

They’ll say nice things about me after I’m gone. At my funeral. If I have one that is. Securing a pauper’s grave is not an easy thing to come by, I know. But however it turns out, I’m sure they’ll wax eloquent about my good qualities, and most certainly mention my “otherworldness”. Well I hope … Continue reading