I live inside you
I’ve not a choice
And you show me that you’re in charge
You’re either smooth and even and quiet
Or raging and relentless and zealous
Then I can’t help but touch you
To rub and to gnaw and to score you
You make sure I know that you’re here
Why do you demand such attention?
I hate you.
They say you were always here
But waited to come out
The last ten years with you have not been pleasant
Even when you go into hiding
Which you do whenever you want
Now that you’re back
Strangers on the street stare
I can tell because they lose eye contact
Take their eyes off my smile
And stare at you up and down
You make me self-conscious.
A manifestation of disease and mystery
No one can say
Or give any reason
I want to accept you and
Just live in peace.
Has God sent you to punish me for my sins and my shortcomings?
I’m so sorry God
Please forgive me
You don’t give a man more than he can take right?
That’s what they say.